Inside out

A poem by Sean Kathryn Bratton

I don’t know what’s higher, your hopes or me

My feelings drowning in your sea, a warped way I learned to be

You’re here yet you’re not, I’ve yet to find you

The scale tilted when beside me, distant or buried, I can’t decipher the two

It hurts to think something happened to you

It’s taken me too long to write what I really want to

Memories in and out, feelings fluid out the spout

Accepting what is, not projecting what could be

Projecting what I really see

Projecting a narrative I wish to be

Love so strong it turned me inside out

Inside out with my guts spilling about

Feelings come and go, that’s the funny thing

You’re left in the depths of the high reaching low

Left in the depths of intense feeling to being numb in your soul

Love feels forever, swinging on the pole

That’s all I know