My eyes deceive me, I trained them so

A poem by Sean Kathryn Bratton

I no longer look for you..

I can’t believe it’s being said

I no longer look for you..

Almost as if you’re dead

God, my mind goes from white to black so easily

I can’t turn it off, it’s my greatest enemy

What’s the point in searching, I’ll never be satisfied

You’re here, you’re there, you’re everywhere

You live inside my eyes

My eyes deceive me, I trained them so

Maybe I just want to see you, so then there I go

I stopped searching, searching would mean you’re lost

You’re far from lost from what I can see

You’re the ruler and the boss

Or is it me, am I the ruler?

Is this my power l’ve been bestowed?

I think it is, how funny I freely give you all the credit

But it’s mine, truth be told

I know it’s mine, I’m playing games

Why do I do this to myself

You’re just a boy, a silly boy

I hold the magic spell

My mind is such a crafty deceiver, making me think it’s you

I can turn you into a frog, the same way I make these songs about you

Every song reminds me of you, because I make it so

I project my magic onto you, as if you’re a one man show

So I stopped searching, you’re within me forever, like it or not

It’s me, I know. I’m the one man show

Me, my mind, and heart